27/10 's ME

Aloha~ Every single sad or happy things around me i really love to share with u guys!
SO! IF u dislike me or not happy with what i am writing about just please don't visit me
hmmm.......Just don't want harm your eyes reading my post la, k?

Today 10/27 is just a memorable day for me~head for my first time this shit competition
and I never think that i can grab a trophy like this and cash reward at this "years old"
Thanks god for leading me pass through the hard and nervous moment

Even though the result is really not satisfy me. my own, not giving the best one but....
I PASS IT already!
I proved what i wanna proved. Then it's enough!
YEah... Cheers world.

Currently superb busy with paper marking task.
HEadache and gonna leaving school and many thing have to settle down!
OmG...I need more time to prepare many documents and so on for leaving school
I need finish marking and do analysis for students paper.
analysis = No. students * No. questions
busy life continue until NOVEMBER
i looking forward my holidays! 

Can't wait can't wait!
 

GOOD NIGHT na ka~~ =P

替身?后补？好人难当

这可说是我 N 星期前的牢骚与无奈。( N = 2 or 3 )
只因忙，我忍，而没上来发泄一番。
今日来发现问题依旧存在，甚至演变成另一阶段。

自从当上临教后，我就开始被许多人当成替身/后补。
好事就没我份。
话说，A & B 都是我的朋友，认识好几年，有十多年了吧！
A 对我很好，也比较亲近的朋友之一。
A 和 B 都去当临教了， 我是较她们迟一星期也去当临教。
刚当临教的我，并没积极去找兼职。除了早上教书之外，其余时间都是偶尔打球喝茶聊天。

某日，A 信息我要我帮她代课补习 2天 （方知她早已找到兼职补习）
基于认为 A 平日对我不错，想说帮帮忙也无谓反正我也没忙，就答应了。
过后几天， B 也信息我，要我帮她代课 1 晚。 （方知她们2人都在同地方教补习）
基于不想让自己时间Pack 太紧凑，所以婉转拒绝 B 了。
一半，也是忽然感到 自己好像太好被当替身，很不喜欢这样的感觉。
我要嘛就介绍补习学生给我补习，而不是叫我代替这代替那
在学校我已经被当成“代替这个老师，代替那个老师” 的“代替老师” 了。
很不喜欢这种被人呼之则来挥之则去的感觉！更和况，人家未必对你心存感激！

就为了这点事！B 觉得我帮了A 不帮她，而对我心存芥蒂！
随后接二连三的不愉快发生，也向同事诉苦征求意见
因为我真是觉得：好人难做！
同事说：这样的朋友因为你不能帮他而生气你，那他也纯粹在利用你罢了。
老实说，我真的很为难。我只想要多些属于自己的时间。
更何况，我没有欠你钱，没欠你时间，你要求我帮忙我凭什么能力一定要帮到你呢？
若没帮到你你凭什么来暗讽我的不是呢？
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过了2星期后， A 又找我要我帮她再代课
Again...有了上次经验我决定谁都不帮了。
再说，我已经有属于自己的学生。所以以自己的学生为先
家长要求多补习一天以为即将面临的考试做准备。
而 A 叫我代课的日期刚好就是家长要我补课的日子是同日
所以我告诉A 说： sorry, 我有事不能帮你代课哟！
结果 A 之后一封 “没关系” 都没回复我。（即使她已阅过我的信息）
Again,  Am I born to help u guys? and If I cant help,  then become I owe you?

当上临教的日子加上 CDFC 帮忙的生活，我几乎天天都累得趴在床上一分钟内睡着！
C 是经营花店的老板娘，亦是我的长辈
仗着某公会消费她家的胸花，就看在利益份上为那公会效力
硬是要我去当什么礼仪小姐（帮VIP 戴上襟花的女生）
嘿！她是长辈叻～能拒绝吗？即使我再多的不愿意。
因为。曾经没在情人节到她店里去帮她，她就在我全部亲戚面前道尽我的不是
说我没帮忙等等难听的话，好像我欠她的！
情人节我都没车下去她店里，她一通电话也没打来，也没说来载我去他店里帮忙
叫我怎样去帮她叻？
帮她做了好几次的丧府花圈我连一毛子都没跟她要，她也不曾给过我半毛钱。
还要忍受她在背后说我是非。
能不叹一句“好人难做”？
我们家不是欠她的。他叫人做事倒容易。
一句话，姐和姐夫就得从他们家驾车去吉隆坡机场接她女儿。还要效劳带她女儿去逛街
一句话，就要我全家包括我妈和我爸，去送花圈到丧府家和准备花圈
一句话，就要我爸特地送我家钥匙下去给她！
她一句话，我爸爸就得赶去帮她擦屎擦尿，弄到老爸脾气不好，回来发泄在我和我妈身上
对，就她的事，有够我们全家烦的了，还让我爸妈吵架
家里的储物房，满满堆的不是我家的东西。都是她的东西！
叫她把东西搬回她自己的家，还理直气壮的说：不要啊！等下我家很乱去啊！
天。。她也懂乱？那放我们家就不造成我们家乱吗？？

我把这篇说得那么明，是因为我真是气够了
这些都超越我的底线；请不要再把我当替身或后补
帮你们，不是因为我欠你的，也不是你的佣人。
再说，请求人帮忙，人家是100％ 非得帮你不可吗？
人家帮不到就另寻他法，何必背后插刀？
同事要我从这些事看清一个人的面目，学习到一门学问
分辩谁是真心朋友。
倘若你非有意这样对我。但不好意思，我只能说我的确被你伤了。
毕竟都把你们当成朋友，却遭如此对待。

总括一句。我过得很好，是外人打扰我的生活带我很多麻烦事

我学会狠心。当个坏人或许更胜于当个好人

因为往往好人难当，难做好人

或许更为准确的是，人家怎样待我，我就怎样待她

面对好人，就对他好，面对现实人，就现实的对他吧◎ 学会狠下心肠做个坏人

Just my words...+ Convocation

Hello, dear all. I'm here writing about my feelings.
Currently so definitely busy.
 just busy from my convocation and rushing preparing the kids for year end exam.
Confusing my future too. School offer me to continue teaching next year.
But i want to try out something new relating engineering field.
so..HOW?

Something menggemparkan my feelings too especially I lost something really important
and it's my First time..kinda sad to max, but still have try to cheer up myself for my own convo
the schedule is just too rush for me and i missed to try my fav dessert -- the chef home's "melting moment"
Just...my superb "soi"  dragon year..........

Posting about my convocation? Hmm.. Not that free yet!
Still got a lots of school matter to settle off. However will post some pixca to show the environment during the convocation~

Inside the hall

Somebody busy talking behind us while US busy photo shooting there

Outside the hall.....I love this pic so much! credit to Meng's sister! =P

I SO SO regret..........

coz i have NOT much pics taken with friends

NO pic with nana, peggy, Chieng, kelly lim, jennifer bla blabla
and many more...............
I cant even meet with shit lady! WHY~
no gather with SMC friends also NO take group photo
WHY... 

sad case~


Okay, Past dy.. what to do?
LOL......
Will continue some graduation post next time
Stay tuned~ =)

Recently ME

Hello guys, i have so many things to tell but dunno where to start yet plus maybe you have no interested about what i am going on recently? lol. Anyway, just come back with the propose of avoid the mushrooms growing in my bloggy..=P

What to share in this post i have really no idea which part to be discuss first even though i got a tons of good, nice, happy, great, bad, sad, terrible..etc story to share. Or I just post some of my own current pics and end this post? Maybe tell a little tiny things about me? like.................
1) I planned to keep fit but honestly to tell, i failed?
2) I wished to get my fair skin back but again i failed, and getting darker due to the sport days held last week?

HOLY shit, how am I going to fix these irritating problems?

Something good thing pls...Here!
Time flies...step into first week of October means i am going heading my second month of my teaching life in Chung Hua(My pre-primary School). But this also my last month teaching here since my "contract" will be "expired" soon. lolol.. Got happy or sad at the same time, anyway not yet reach the moment. Will tell my feelings in future.

Yeah, it's October right now! Anything special?? yeah, of course very special.
1) For my girl friend (anonymous) coz we just want it to be secretly and mysteriously to go on for her WEDDing so i'm not going to show her name here! This really unexpectedly happened and kinda surprising me at first. After all we plan quite a lot of wedding thingy especially clothing matter. BUT sad to say i cant attend due to my job. So so so hate!

2）It's my graduation month but yet i have not much happy for convocation feeling right now. YET to worry many much matter to settle off like hotel booking, flight boarding pass, transportation booking, studio booking... and wtf all are $$$$$ spendings!!! Seems like i work hard for tuition will end up paying all those spending in just 2 days! HAte! Anyway, convocation/ graduation seems like a happy moment but somehow it bring me quite a lot troublesome here. Need reschedule my school schedule, while the headmaster only allowed me to apply leave for one day, and asking me direct go school as i reach Bintulu airport! =S

3) Just now I did mention about tuition right? Okay, finally I started my tuition on October already! another side income for me.. not really much but sponsor my trip (and my parents's) for Kuching 2 days is enough. Yeah, i just wish the whole trip i will be the one sponsor for them, including stay, eat, transport etc. Even though they feel like wanna pay some for me but i rejected. They fed me for years already and its time for me to pay them back right!

After this all, I will be looking forward my vacation to Singapore on December. November i'll be jobless! Currently i think jobless for me is a good way too. Sometime i need replace my mum to work when she going to leave to KL. So, i have to standby there.

LAstly, i hope everything going smooth. NOV my birthday month, and I want a really special gift like.......hmmm...something i want or something i liked! DEC my travelling month, going buy something i want or something i like!

End the post with my nga face! FAT hor?? oklah, real me, *no filter. Okay, right one got filter lah. much nicer than left pic the one with burger. My face can compete with burger size dy. lololol.

     

This is me during working time. Last time kinda free. Call me teacher now.
After convo or after November pls call me engineer ya! =P =P
*kidding* 

SEE you Next post.